Well, different things influenced it. For example, bullying. And that happened at both schools. I didn't realize that if you stand out, if you have more talents or you work harder on them, then of course someone who isn't as talented, but who wants to be, will take issue with you. Because you're always better at something. When I started teaching, I thought about how bullying occurs in almost every (if not in every) class; it sucks, but at least it's just a teenage phase. They're still immature, and we know why they act like that. But what's worse is that it's the exact same thing with teachers (so-called adults): teachers bully each other, new teachers, young people who just started work after college, and more successful teachers whose students participate in Olympiads. Of course, they're focusing on their own problems, and not very many of them—teachers or school psychologists—are interested in stopping bullying between teenagers.
Were you bullied for getting A's?
Well, it was like this: teachers constantly praise you and use you as an example, which infuriates certain other students. Like, you come in, new to class, and begin completing your work more quickly than everyone else. You have straight A's in all subjects, even gym, where it has nothing to do with intelligence, but your body. You can make the high jump as well as the boys because you have long legs. You are too much and you are everywhere; it can't help but piss people off.
Or, more accurately, if you're another eighth-grader in Abdulino, you can't help but be pissed off about it.
So, some girls in class found a "weak" point and focused on that, without coming up with anything too creative: the girls that have boobs make up names for those haven't gotten them yet, those kinds of things.
The easiest thing to do would be to just work less and not attract too much attention, but the opposite happened with me. Apparently, my communication skills left much to be desired, or I wouldn't have wasted my nerves or anyone else's. I would have come up with a way to resolve everything. I thought everyone had to accept me as I was, and with my intellect—including my emotional intellect—all I could do was fight.
I went to all the educational Olympiads that took place in School no. 5, as well as to many citywide ones. There were only a few straight-A students at school, and the schools compete for students who can place first, second, or third, so they just send you everywhere, trying to win everything you can without paying attention to your individual interests.